So within the past few weeks I have been dealt a...

20th April 2010

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So within the past few weeks I have been dealt a shitty hand. I have tried to keep my complaints minimal as I do not want to be “the whiny “girl. Between the issues with my brother and the kids, car accident, and 2 deaths within a 3 week period; I have reached my peak level of stress. I am trying very hard to stay positive but at the moment it seems like when I get up and am knocked back down.

Even with all this, I invoke the true essence of the Phoenix, no matter how many times I am knocked down, or metaphorically die, I will rise again stronger. This is how I came to attain the name. It has been my essence for as long as I can remember. I am a fighter. Do I feel like there is no fight left and I should give up? All the time, but I push through it and I fight. I fight so hard and I do not let many know of my struggles.

As we all face our issues we are defined by our actions. Some will let the pain engulf them and simply let the flame fizzle out. Some come out swinging and end up overcoming. This fight, however, is never a fight that we are alone in. in the little time we have all known each other we have bonded. We have had each other’s backs. We have been willing to fetch rope, plane tickets, chickens, and sketchy plans to go out in blazes of glory to assist our friends.

This very thing is what keeps my faith in humanity alive. The fact that I can simply say I have had a shitty day and I have at least 7 responses within the minute. We all have each others back. I would have any of yours in a New York minute. (how fast is that really?? I mean why is NY’s minute any different than say, a GA minute??…ok tangent) But anyway…the point is, it is so beautiful to see that we have all grown into a family and not just a group of people that will step on one another to get ahead. That is how most of the world has become.

I hope I have made you smile at least ½ as much as each of you have brought one to my face. I love you all, and thank each and every one of you for being you! You are all amazing and beautiful people. J

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